It begins.

I've wanted to be a blog author for a long ass time, but have always had a zillion reasons why I can't do it "right now." Well. I just lost my job. Which means I have ample free time to do whatever the hell I want, as long as it doesn't require spending any money. So here I am, being a blog author. Will it suck? Will it be awesome? Will anyone ever even read it (besides myself) to judge one way or another in the first place? We shall see.

I think a good place to start with this would be to talk about the title of the blog, "Bud vs. Blossom." Not long ago, I sort of threw myself head first into a self-induced personal crisis. It was on the verge of happening for a long time, so I decided to allow myself to lose my shit and go with it, finally, because it needed to happen. I'm not normally big on inspirational quotes or anything like that, but while in the midst of deciding whether or not to allow my shit to be lost, I stumbled onto a quote by Anais Nin. It stuck with me and inspired me to do what I needed to do to be the person I wanted to be. It goes like this:

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

Couldn't have been more perfectly tailored to me and life when I found it, and ever since then, I've decided to put on my big girl panties and take responsibility for life. So far, so good.